Tuesday, May 26, 2015

Librarian or elementary school teacher?

So, I've been thinking. I want to go back to school, but I am indecisive on what I want to go back for. A children's librarian? Or elementary school teacher? I like being a preschool teacher, but I feel I want more, a little change. With my experience working in a preschool for five years, I think I would do well. I'm going to be honest. I'm leaning more towards a librarian. I will be closer to books, I have experience working with young children, and creating activities for them, and I like working with them. I've been doing some online research about what they do, and all that, but I think I need to talk a real librarian and get some input from him or her. As for the elementary school teacher, I think I am more interested because of holidays and such. I don't know how well I'll do with older kids, I'm not so well with the older kids. They will walk all over me. I can deal better I think with twos than fours even. I'm still unsure though. If I could be sure I'll be working with six or seven year olds then yes, but older than that I don't know. But I'm sure I can get use to it. I'm getting pretty stressed thinking about which is the better choice for me. But if I don't choose something soon I might just never choose, so I need to choose soon.

Monday, May 25, 2015

Two very different, yet happy, friends

Hello everybody,
Wow, long time huh. It's been over two months since I last updated my blog. That last post says it all. I've been doing a lot of thinking.

I haven't gone on facebook but for a few times to see how a couple of dear friends of mine are doing. I don't write to them, I just see how they are doing. Is that weird? I use to write a comment on one of their post every now and then but I stopped.

One of those friends never wrote back, she is a very busy girl and just graduated from Vet School. Very proud of her. She was a good friend of mine from Kindergarten, and then later in middle school. I have a mixture of feelings, I'm happy for her, but it just makes me look at my own life. I don't want to say anything about it just yet. I remember since she was very young she had a love for animals, and in middle school when anybody would ask what are you going to be when you are older? She always, ALWAYS, answered a vet. And now, here she is graduating.

The other friend doesn't have much but she seems very happy to have so many friends that help her and her daughter out. I was looking at back posts and she communicates through everybody through facebook, and rarely by phone since it's difficult to get reception where she lives: somewhere very naturey and forestry. An old post said she was on her way to l.a by train and needs someone to let her and the baby crash at their place for a week, or to take her to a motel with WiFi. Just like that, it's like that morning she said I'm going to l.a and very simply knew she could rely on her friends to help her out. She has so many friends I kid you not.
She has gone through so many downs, so many times she has been homeless, but because she has good friends (she is such a great person), she doesn't end up on the streets. A few times she did end up in her car, but not for long. Thinking of her makes me a little teary because she has such a good heart, she is the type of person inside that I strive to be. If she can be helpful she will be, and it doesn't matter where you come from, or how you look, to her everybody is beautiful. I love that. I met her some years ago in the preschool I work at now. I was there before her, and she came later, and she left the school before I did. She didn't feel that our boss treated the teachers right, including her. Yes, she's nice. Yes, she gives us bonuses. But, she does expect a lot on our part. I remember I told her one time that I wanted to find something else but I was afraid it was all the same, she said no. No, there are better places. She's been a preschool teacher, and hasn't been now since she has a baby, but will look for a job as soon as her baby is a little older.
Anyway, about her: She is true to herself. Someone once told her not to expose herself too much, but she said that if she doesn't she feels like she is not being herself. She wants everybody to see everything, to see who she is. To see how much she struggles, and how happy she is. This makes her feel true to herself.

I've been doing a lot of thinking about my life, but that will be for another post.