Monday, May 30, 2011

So, I wasn't sure whether to post something or not, but then I remembered why I decided to finally get this laptop: to write. Though I am going to be honest and say that I have no idea what to write about. I am just sitting here thinking, and wondering whether I should just write about my day? Sometimes during the day I have something that I am feeling and want to write but I don't have the time to sit and write. I make a mental note but those notes sometimes get erased and when I get to a computer or to a notebook I forget.

Now I am thinking about lots of things that I would like to talk/write about. I have to wake up early tomorrow for work, and its a little late, so instead of making a mental note, I will make the note here:
chatting, grandmother, son's quirks..... oh I guess its only three...

I should sleep. I hope next time I will write about the above things I have in mind.

Saturday, May 28, 2011

I'm posting this from my new laptop. Finally. =) I hope to be posting more often, at least once a week.
Today I don't feel up for posting anything, but just to say that I finally got my top.

Alright then. Good night.

Sunday, May 22, 2011

My laptop. Oh, and that salesguy

Yes, I finally bought my laptop... a cheap one. Unfortunately the one that I wanted wasn't in stock, so I had to order it. That means I won't get it till next Saturday. But that's okay. I bought it. I was debating whether or not to get their geek squad 1 year warranty. I don't have much cash and want to save. It seemed really good but I don't have much money to spend, so I will have to do without it. Yikes.

The salesguy really wanted me to get it. He kept telling me to "think about it". It really bothers me when people keep insisting and insisting, especially salespeople. Though I'd like to think he wanted to look out for me.

Oh, and it was 6pm when he started to ring me up. At 6:02 he said that the end didn't come and if it did then he would have been glad to have spent it with me. Right. That really bothered me, especially the way he said it.

I think I dislike salespeople.

Friday, May 20, 2011

I have too many blogs... old blogs. This is the current one and I haven't been writing. I was looking at an old xanaga blog I use to have. Wow, my writing then was not too bad actually... I saw some poetry I had forgotten about. I read them and thought "wow, I wrote that?" It's funny because I always liked to write and read poetry, simple poems, but what I really tried for was fiction writing. I tried to write but they never came out as well as my poems did. Then, after my son was born my poetry writing seemed to have gone south. I was unable to write. I did not try to write fiction but the narrative poems that I did write were better than the others. Then, the first story that I wrote (which sprung from one of my narrative poem) was unbelievably better than all the rest of the stories I had written prior to that one. The rest of the stories that came after that one were just as good. Of course I had to clean them up a bit, and still have to clean up now, but they were good.

Now, what happened? I had priorities, and troubles that would cloud my mind too much. Then, I became a single mother and had other priorities and troubles, and it was a whole emotional turmoil. Then, I started again, and I began by starting to clean up a few pieces, and just as I was starting (the second day), my computer shut down (literally) and didn't want to turn on. Oh was I upset! For days I went from being upset, to sad, to just letting it go. But after reading my old xanga blog, it seemed to have revived something in me, and just letting go will not do. No. This weekend I will buy my laptop- the one I've been saying i will be buying since last year.

ps. a poem I wrote in that xanga blog just made me realize how much I was affected by that guy who tried to sexually assault me. I didn't think I was that bad, but wow, that poem like really portrayed what I know I was feeling then. Not sure how I feel now to be honest, still have some issues but like I said, not sure.

okay thats it

Solstice

Either of the two times in the year, the summer solstice and the winter solstice, when the sun reaches its highest point or its lowest point in the sky at noon, marked by the longest and shorterst day.